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Thank you so much for sweet the encouragement you ...

2010-02-19T15:34:48.886-06:00

Thank you so much for sweet the encouragement you left on my blog. Also, thank you for speaking so honestly about infertility. You explained exactly how I feel at times, its a comfort knowing there are others out there feeling the same way! Wishing you the very best!

Amy,

I found this post today through Ms. Fl...

2008-12-17T10:07:00.000-06:00

Amy,

I found this post today through Ms. Florida Transplant. I don't think I've ever heard infertility explained as eloquently as you have here. My husband and I have been trying to get pregnant for over two years now but I have yet to consult a fertility specialist because I am terrified to hear the bad news. I just keep reading and trying new things and wondering if there is something I am not doing right. But to hear official bad news seems worse than the wondering.
The worst part is that no one knows. I don't want to talk about it, not even to family. I don't want people feeling sorry for me. But that means we get the questions all the time. After five years of marriage and now that my husband is out of grad school, the questions come all the time. And I plaster on a smile and pretend this is a decision we've made rather than a cross we secretly bear. Recently I started this second blog, an anonymous one, to try to get some of it out. I am just so angry and frustrated and sad, I need to put that somewhere sometimes. I am normally a bubble happy person but this seems to have taken over my life, my thoughts, my entire inner being.
Your post helped me tremendously and gave me something to strive for. I know I can't allow this to make me bitter or cynical. I have written down the scriptures to remind myself daily of how I should be handling this.
Thank you for posting about this. Maybe some day I will be brave enough to be honest about it myself.

Thank you SO much for this post. I, too, have st...

2008-12-03T19:37:00.000-06:00

Thank you SO much for this post. I, too, have struggled with infertility (1 1/2 years) and recently had a similarly shocking conversation with my doctor when we found out that IVF was our only option, too. I have severe endometriosis and lost a fallopian tube in exploratory surgery when my dr. was "cleaning up" as much of it as he could. One tube was not salvageable. We were given 4 months on Clomid, but 3 are down with only this month to go & no pregnancy. We are currently praying for clear direction about whether to get a loan and move forward with IVF or whether to pursue adoption. I am praying for YOU right this moment and I am thankful for your openness and encouragement in this blog! I live in Atlanta, too-- have you found a fertility specialist that you like because I am about to be looking... Thanks!

I am so sorry for the trouble you are having. My c...

2008-12-02T15:11:00.000-06:00

I am so sorry for the trouble you are having. My comment comes from an area that many don't get to know about, a birthmother's perspective. I have noticed through the comments that many people think of adoption from a very old school point of view. Young girl gets pregnant, panics and takes the 'easy' way out and abandons her child. These days, this is not the case...or at least it was not with me. When I got pregnant it was not the right time for me to be caring for a child. Could I have done it? Yes. But would it have been the best choice for that child? No. I had to make a choice, and that was exactly what it was - a choice, to give up my son in order to provide him with a life that he would not have had with me at that point in my life. It was the most difficult decision I have ever faced, but I do not regret it for a moment. The couple who adopted him are very similar to you and Dusty. They tried and tried and tried but just could not have a child. Meeting them and getting to know them really showed me that God does not always have THE "plan" we imagined, but it sure is a plan. When I looked in their eyes and saw who they were I knew that this was meant to be.

Adoption is not something you want to think about now and I completely understand that. But if that time were to come, have faith that you and Dusty are the exact people that HE has in mind for that child...no one else.

Wow Amy, I can't stop crying. This is exactly how...

2008-11-21T18:58:00.000-06:00

Wow Amy, I can't stop crying. This is exactly how I feel also. My husband has been saying the statement about "this is not what defines us as a family" for quite a while now. You described infertility perfectly and trying to smile behind so much pain and putting up with people's dumb comments and suggestions. My husband has wanted to tell people when they ask when we are going to have kids, "We don't know how!" I have also struggled with the questions about God and is He punishing me or is there something in my life I am doing wrong to not merit a baby in his eyes? But, the best part of this post and you sharing your heart (thank you so much) are the questions with the scriptures at the end. Those really ministered to me. Thank you for encouraging me and others with your transparent heart and longing. You are a blessing!

Amy- I don't "know you" but I came over from Faith...

2008-11-20T19:25:00.000-06:00

Amy- I don't "know you" but I came over from Faith's blog to read this post. I relate so much to this...I think it may be the most accurate description of infertility I have ever read. My hubby and I just found out we are pregnant after 18 months of infertility, including Clomid. (Which is from satan, as far as I am concerned.) I have PCOS symptoms, and chronic migraines that are so terrible that I am in bed at least 10 days a month. I agree with you about everything you wrote- the aloneness, the pain, and how hard it is to deal with other's comments. I also agree- infertility is the WORST thing for a woman to go through...and yet look how many of us there are...WHY, LORD? I don't have the answer..but God has worked a miracle for us, and I am trusting He will do the same for you, and all our friends who are on this journey. I am adding your name specifically to my daily prayer list. Thank you for this post.

Amy, my heart aches and is broken for you and DW. ...

2008-11-20T19:10:00.000-06:00

Amy, my heart aches and is broken for you and DW. We know what it's like to lose, we know what it's like to wait a little bit, but we don't know what it's like to wait so long and to have PCOS. I don't mean to sound like a weirdo, but I hope you know I love you girl and I am soo praying for you and for DW. Keeping "trying" girl, praying for a miracle! It could definitely happen! We had a friend who was told she could never have any kids, she is almost ready to deliver #5, we said she needs to send that original dr. 5 little pairs of booties.

oh my gosh...thanks so much for writing this...so ...

2008-11-20T18:36:00.000-06:00

oh my gosh...thanks so much for writing this...so much of it is how I feel too! Thanks for sharing your heart! I hope you dont mind if I add you to my blogroll...i have experienced four miscarriages and we are just starting to TTC again! I would love to get to know you more! April :0)

Oh I could have written every word of this last ye...

2008-11-20T17:44:00.000-06:00

Oh I could have written every word of this last year. I didn't have PCOS - but none the less - I had all of the same feelings you are experiencing and it breaks my heart that you are feeling it now. You KNOW I'm praying for you and for God to do a miracle for you! What I found through the blog world - is you are NOT alone! Not even close. I'm thankful for your faith - lean on it.

Faith mentioned this post on her blog...so glad I ...

2008-11-20T10:48:00.000-06:00

Faith mentioned this post on her blog...so glad I came over to read. I've felt the 'all alone in a crowded room' so many times...sometimes daily. Thank you for sharing your heart and for sharing the scripture God has given you. I needed it this week.

Thank you for putting into words what so many of u...

2008-11-20T10:45:00.000-06:00

Thank you for putting into words what so many of us feel! I have tried to "be strong" and keep a strong face for so long. A few days ago, I gave up and started a blog. Something that I have kept SO private is now out in the open for anyone and their mammas to see. A little scary!! After the disappointment this month, I was so borken and angry. I never doubted that God has a plan or that He was with me...but it's hard to HEAR Him sometimes. I think that it's OK to be angry...but I know that ONLY He got/will get me through these times! Thanks again!

Amy, thank you for sharing this post. This is exac...

2008-11-20T07:59:00.000-06:00

Amy, thank you for sharing this post. This is exactly how I am feeling! Everywhere I go I see happy pregnant ladies, and children galore. I am praying for peace, but it is so hard! I am currently doing my second round with Clomid. This post reminded me that I am NOT alone, and that there ARE other people out there going through what we are, feeling the same way. And most important of all, God is with us through all of it! Praying for you!

Sweet one, I have known EXACTLY how you feel. You ...

2008-11-19T21:43:00.000-06:00

Sweet one, I have known EXACTLY how you feel. You summed it up so well. I am praying His perfect will on your life and that you will sweetly surrender to it.. just from this post, I can truly tell that He is molding you into something beautiful..... Press on, cling to the VINE and keep your face looking towards Him. I will be praying.

Amy,
This is an incredibly beautiful and heartf...

2008-11-19T20:00:00.000-06:00

Amy,
This is an incredibly beautiful and heartfelt post...I feel like I could have written parts of it myself. I know all too well the way a heart aches when it longs for a child. God is so good to give all us who experience infertility to one another for encouragement.

We were also told that our only option was IVF (along with some other procedures that added to the cost). We also knew going in that God had not given us a peace to go forward with IVF if that is what the fertility specialist recommended.

Oh, I am so thankful that God in his wisdom knew how to provide for the desires of my heart better than I did! Did he have to change my heart and desires...ABSOLUTELY! But what an amazingly beautiful transformation it has been!

Continue to cry out to Him with your desires. Someone I really respect told me to pray for God to make His desires mine. This was the best advice because sometimes I just didn't know how to pray.

Praying for you!
Mandi

thanks so much for your comment on my blog! natur...

2008-11-19T19:06:00.000-06:00

thanks so much for your comment on my blog! naturally, i peeked at yours because isn't that what we all do? Blog stalk?? :) this post touched my heart in so many ways. it is so hard to put into words what it is like to suffer from infertility. no one else understands it unless they have been through it. i feel a little bit guilty because we were finally blessed with our daughter...but we're selfish and we want more. we want more for her because she wants a brother and a sister. when you meet someone else (in person or in the blogging world) who suffers from infertility, you have an instant bond. i am glad he brought you into mine. i dont know what God has planned for you, but i will begin praying for you and your journey. i am also adding you to my list so i can keep up with you and continue praying for you. you have an incredible outlook on the entire situation. sharing your pain helps people to get a glimpse of what it is like, but not everyone can truly understand it. i will continue praying for you....thanks for this incredible post.

{praying for you}

♥

2008-11-19T17:15:00.000-06:00

{praying for you}

♥

Thanks for your comment. You're in my prayers too...

2008-11-19T16:24:00.000-06:00

Thanks for your comment. You're in my prayers too! I'll add you to my follow list so I can stay updated. The Lord is performing miracles! Have you seen the movie "Facing The Giants" I highly recommend it :~)

I keep your name on my P-List at work and pray for...

2008-11-19T15:39:00.000-06:00

I keep your name on my P-List at work and pray for you daily. I'm extremely high risk and they don't know if my daughter's heart condition would happen again in another child and if I would go early again. I know how hard it is to feel alone in a crowded room. It sucks, but God still holds our hand so we are not alone.

I thank you so much for your post on infertility, ...

2008-11-19T15:37:00.000-06:00

I thank you so much for your post on infertility, I too suffer from PCOS. My husband and I have been blessed with one son who is 4, after many many procedures, visits to the dr, months of fertility treatments and then the most wonderful blessing from God!
Samuel 1:27 For this child I prayed and God granted us our request. We are now struggling with the same situations again, our hearts desire is for a 2nd child but we know that must be Gods will for us first, have Faith and not Fear. I pray for you and your husband, that your prayers will be answered. May God Bless You! Infertility is a tough roller coaster ride but like your post reminds me as well God is always in control.
Thank you!
~Jennifer

Thank you, thank you for being so open and sharing...

2008-11-19T15:11:00.000-06:00

Thank you, thank you for being so open and sharing. I too have been having diffulty getting pregnant, and it seems that life keeps throwing me obstacles. Your post helped remind me that God is in control.

Thank you for writing this post. Its so hard to de...

2008-11-19T13:44:00.000-06:00

Thank you for writing this post. Its so hard to describe how it feels, but I think you did a beautiful job. I, too, have PCOS. I don't cycle on my own. I also have had 2 surgeries for endometriosis. I will be praying for you. I hold tightly to the story of Hannah. When I need to be uplifted, I read it. God Bless you and your husband. I will be praying for you.

Amy,
I was out of the blogging loop yesterday a...

2008-11-19T11:11:00.000-06:00

Amy,
I was out of the blogging loop yesterday and I am just now reading this. Oh how I wish I had something amazing and uplifting to say, all I can say is that I know God loves you and has some sort of amazing plan for your life. I have so many friends who have dealt with infertility and it breaks my hurt to imagine what they are going through. Thank you so much for being so honest and open about your struggles. You are an amazing woman of God and I feel blessed win read your blog. I will be praying for both you and your Grandfather, I've been dealing with an ailing Grandma as well and God has blessed us with an unbelieveable recovery at this point. I will pray the same outcome comes to your family.

God has given you a sensitive and discerning heart...

2008-11-19T03:04:00.000-06:00

God has given you a sensitive and discerning heart. Thank you for sharing it with us! I think what makes blog friendships so special is that we get to know the insides and depths of people and the superficial stuff tends to get left out. I've seen your pics and know you are beautiful on the outside...but what I know even better than that is how beautiful you are on the inside! You are a woman after God's own heart. And I believe your faithfulness in posting so openly and honestly has already been used by Him to further His kingdom. I don't know what the end of this journey will look like for you (my prayers for a child of your own go up with thousands of others), but I know you are making good use of the "meantime." It reminds me of that cardboard testimony of the woman who was diagnosed with MS...her doctor was not saved, but came to Christ while caring for her...what was her response? "Worth it!" Like you said, the circumstances are not in our control, but our response to them is...blessings to you and DW for choosing faithfulness in the midst of pain and wondering. He is a just God. Love, prayers, and blessings to you...

I had to come comment. I am so sorry that this ha...

2008-11-18T23:37:00.000-06:00

I had to come comment. I am so sorry that this has happened to you. But then again you can always turn something like this into a blessing in disguise. I am not very good at wording things so bare with me here a moment. I am going to tell you somthing that I don't think I have repeated to anyone that doesn't know me personally.... I was a very young young stupid kid at one point in life. I had a child at the age of 18 and knew within my deep heart of hearts that I was to young and could never raise him. I gave him up for adoption. The hardest thing I think I will EVER have to go thru in my life. But I know he is with good christan people. Maybe just maybe this is your calling? Adoption can and is a wonderful thing for those that can't get pregnant. Personally I can't get pregnant anymore and while it breaks my heart as well I know there is a wonderful child out there who has no one and needs a family. And my partner and I do plan to adopt a child when we are ready and set. And while I can't understand personally what you are going thru becuz we are two different people and I will never pretend to know. Know that there is always someone to talk to if you need to in me :)

wow...thank you for being so transparent...it give...

2008-11-18T22:20:00.000-06:00

wow...thank you for being so transparent...it gives those of us who aren't in the room with you a totally new (and much needed)perspective. i wish there were words i could say to ease the pain or make it all better...but instead, i will continue to pray for miracles on your behalf. praying for your PapaBear and the rest of your family...

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Thank you so much for sweet the encouragement you ...

Amy,I found this post today through Ms. Fl...

Thank you SO much for this post. I, too, have st...

I am so sorry for the trouble you are having. My c...

Wow Amy, I can't stop crying. This is exactly how...

Amy- I don't "know you" but I came over from Faith...

Amy, my heart aches and is broken for you and DW. ...

oh my gosh...thanks so much for writing this...so ...

Oh I could have written every word of this last ye...

Faith mentioned this post on her blog...so glad I ...

Thank you for putting into words what so many of u...

Amy, thank you for sharing this post. This is exac...

Sweet one, I have known EXACTLY how you feel. You ...

Amy,This is an incredibly beautiful and heartf...

thanks so much for your comment on my blog! natur...

{praying for you}♥

Thanks for your comment. You're in my prayers too...

I keep your name on my P-List at work and pray for...

I thank you so much for your post on infertility, ...

Thank you, thank you for being so open and sharing...

Thank you for writing this post. Its so hard to de...

Amy,I was out of the blogging loop yesterday a...

God has given you a sensitive and discerning heart...

I had to come comment. I am so sorry that this ha...

wow...thank you for being so transparent...it give...

Amy,

I found this post today through Ms. Fl...

Amy,
This is an incredibly beautiful and heartf...

{praying for you}

♥

Amy,
I was out of the blogging loop yesterday a...